Have you ever realized how quickly things can change? Sure there's a certain extent of progress that happens, but sometimes a life can change within the speed of light. It's actually quite fascinating. I think about all that has happened in the 24 years that I've been around & the changes that have taken place in those years seem endless. I've seen shifts in the way I act, dress, think, and speak. I've had friends come and go (more than I'd like to even admit). I've experienced the unfortunate heartache that came from losing loved ones to death. My interests, priorities, and goals have changed along with everything else that refuses to stay a constant. With all of life's adjustments, I've realized that it eventually stops hurting. It doesn't hurt anymore to have friends walk out of my life. It's okay to accept who I'm turning into, despite what anyone else says. Change is inevitable. Why not embrace it? The fact is, life is too short to be consumed with concern for all of life's twists and turns. At the end of my life, I want to be able to run towards the light with no regrets. I want people to have the ability to think about me and know that change is only the beginning of something great.
There are times when I just want to run away. You know, pack up my stuff and go anywhere I want (which mostly means as far away from Texas as possible). Without hesitation, this is what I would do: I would eat the richest of foods, meet the best people, do everything that I had dreamed of doing, and simply enjoy life's little luxuries far away from the troubles (and worries) of life. But the reality of doing anything near as spontaneous as that...well, it's a joke. You see, I experience a lot of urges to live in complete spontaneity. This is actually my reasoning behind starting a blog. It's also why I have decided that I want to write a book. There's even a title for it! You want to know what it is?? Sorry, you'll have to wait. Perhaps it will be in another blog. ;) It's going to be something immense though. (And yes, there was hesitation to use the word "epic" but I did well in replacing it, don't you agree?) Now moving on to the point. My point is that I want to enjoy my life for what it is...MY life. I've spent so long living it for everyone else and to be honest, it gets exhausting. The thrill of one. That's what I want from life right now. No hesitation, nothing to be tied down to, no strings attached...just the thrill in every experience. What do you think? How will you choose to live today?
